4-AP

Four years has passed, everything in me changed, everything around me modifies into something new.

Four years of dreaming of having eternity by my side, longing for enlightenment to subside inside of me. Four years of unrequited love kept. Where did it go now?

Love that kept me grounded, kept my feet from soaring with pride. A pure love that solicited every impurity into something divine, It was uncalled for. I never did really comprehend my being, my humanity, my sanity.

It all comes back to me -- the first day I lay my eyes on him, the very moment that took away my sanity. The Moment of Awe.

On one account, I dreamed of a horizon filled with emotions. Willing to sacrifice all the luxury the world can offer.

I cry, I weep, I scream with anger. I give my apologies for imposing my stupidity with great pain and anguish, with grief and idiotic thinking. I cry for the love I gave that was nothing more than a mere imagination. I weep for the affection that has come to waste, abyss of dreams.

"Goodbye" really does hurt. Come to think of it -- it somehow makes me into a better individual, a better believer that someone out there is destined to pay-off my unconditional love.

This is not the end of my love story, It's time to move one more step in life. Forget what was lost.


Goodbye my Lover,
P.S.